Be Strong...

Me and her texted each other just before 12am,
Was just thinking if she'd slept already or is she with her boyfriend...
So we texted rite, like always we had to talk about stuff between us that obviously i started,
like the Dick I am...
she asked me whether she could help cheering me up, maybe a kiss she said?
My heart was saying, " why not?" , but I knew better than to kiss a person who does not love me,
i might as well kiss the carpet...

She keeps telling me to be strong , and to love myself before loving others....
I did all that, but all those emotional feelings come pouring back automatically...
It's like Dynamite, and i love the way she lies, telling me it's going to be ok....
If wasn't human, and i didn't have a heart, I'd be kissing some other girls by now....

With all this said, the only thing that I really wanna do , is to just Club my ass off...
I wanna get high, stay drunk, and try to get some other girls attention while i'm at it....
I wanna forget love....she told the whole class as a spontaneous public speaking....
Love is more important than money...i said the exact opposite when i presented...
now I really understand what she meant as Love is more important...
I have all the other love I can get, the missing link, the last piece of the puzzle, is in her hands....

Whether I die alone, or I die a rich and lonely man, is all up to her...
Only Love and Money can make a man wreck they're minds and brains over....
As I am a Hypocryte, i might have said that i'm giving up, but in my heart,
I know, I will never stop loving this person...

It's driving me insane...last message received was at 1.30a.m....
I still love her...