Whatever I Could Remember...

There have been a few things happening in my life,
My Life was Great , But It Became even Better when she came in the picture,
She was the greatest thing since, anything....

She gave me all the love, and pain a man can feel in life...
She loves another, that's ok I said to myself...

"I Love him" she says, I can change all that i thought to myself...
Long did i know God was gonna shoot me down with a Colt Revolver empowered,
TO KILL YOU FROM THE INSIDE....

Even if I die on the inside, i will never condemn her,
Even during a semester break, all I think about is her...

I can feel how the soldiers in Iraq feel before they die...

Enough about dying,
For my 2nd year 1st semester break,
We went to Genting Highland...

We already went there twice this semester...
the 1st time our group ever had a real holiday together,
Korean Girl, Little Rain, Rainee, Big Bro,Tong, Nance, Prince, and Me...
The 1st time was not better than the 2nd time.
Not because MyLove was there, its because the 1st time we clubbed was kinda sad...

The 2nd time I danced like it was no one's business...
In the circle, with all the girls, shaking my booty...
Yeah u can say i was enjoying myself, the problem is we are all in 1 room...

The 1st night, was the most breathtaking night of my life...
Never have i been so close to the 1 before...
Being a gentleman, i respected personal space. So nothing fishy...
She was the angel that i never imagined...the life that i wanted...
If it meant not migrating to Australia, i don't care, as long as i'm with the 1...

There are angels and demons, I consider myself a demon for coming into a relationship of two,
thinking I will make her mine and you'll fucking die...

Yup i'm evil, but God with all his forgiving-ness gave me strength not to break his face,
If i had a chance i would ....I never thought writing a blog would be this relieving...
I looked down on bloggers, saying they dont have a friend to talk to or what not.
But seeing im in a shit state myself, i might as well type this down and save myself the nights of tears,

I'm down on my knees for her, just right now, chatting with her through facebook,
I asked a question, If she were to break up with her boyfriend, would she be with me?
For obvious reasons that the handyman was holding a Colt Revolver shot me with it...
Well happy endings seemed overrated for anyone from any angle,
If you were me you'd feel my pain...No man should be alone this i know. But wanting it
and not getting it back is cruel...

Well I guess shit happens...I hate cupid cos he's just a dumb angel shooting love pointed arrows,
in freaking wrong directions...FUCK YOU CUPID!!!

I can tell you , when they entered my house, I was like, hey meet my parents,
If i love you . they'll love you too...
Problem is she doesn't love me...
God is playing Russian Roulette, Like Rihanna on Drugs....
Shooting me with every bullet everytime he puts 1 in...
Well My "Beautiful Love Life" Dream, is getting washed or SHOT AT!
i might as well be a plumber weating yellow boots kissing ROSIE!

I gave a crappy room with dust all over for friends to stay in...
I gave the person i loved shyt all time...Not being to abled enough to be a better person is like,
My whole life...
I wanna change that...God please send me someone with a solution...i want a person who says it
STRAIGHT FORWARDLY...not like that Bruce Almighty kind of joke...

She asked am i okay?...I just Got 12 gauged by God and she asked me whether i was ok...
not to say that, it was a stupid question, but looking at it, i got rejected and not going really great
when i asked her whether she even likes me or not...
what you want a guy to do? I'm human!!